Saturday, December 30, 2006

Middle School Girls Gone Wild...

This is what makes me nervous about having a daughter someday.

Friday, December 29, 2006

knitting, puttering, and the west wing

hubby bought me the complete series of west wing about three weeks ago. the past three days have consisted of knitting, puttering around the house and watching the west wing. it's been absolutely sublime.

wednesday night around 9 p.m. i started what i'm calling "the great closet reorganization of 2006" wherein i pulled EVERYTHING out of the closet in our diningroom and spread it out on the floor in the livingroom and sorted and organized and consolidated. it was a big mess. thinking about it now i should have taken a before, during and after picture.

one huge garbage bag of stuff tossed (i decided i didn't need to keep all the birthday cards i've received in the past nine years), a serious pile of stuff to donate somewhere (anyone need a fish tank?), and everything else put away tidily in uniform clear rubbermaid boxes and into the closet and i'm feeling pretty good.

i've also managed to unpack all four boxes of junk i brought home from the office and either found a place for the stuff or put the stuff near where i think it will belong. i can't believe how much crap i had in the corners of that tiny cubicle i've lived in for the past two plus years.

there is still plenty of stuff burying the diningroom table, but i think that i'm seeing bare spots here & there.

i've also managed to finish a sock this morning. i started that on christmas eve. i'll start the other sock tonight before bed. AND i just bound off on a scarf that i've been carrying around with me for the past few weeks. i just need to weave in ends and block it.

nevermind that i haven't gotten out of my pajamas today. that's beside the point. the point is that i made amazing tuna melts for dinner and i couldn't be happier.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

"i've got nothing to do today but smile..."

name that song and you get fifteen gold stars.

we're home from celebrating Christmas in connecticut with hub's family.  which was just okay if i'm being honest, and was good if i'm putting it in perspective with the rest of the world.  we were there from saturday night to this morning.  it's never an easy stay for me in CT for a few reasons.

1.  i'm not a good traveller.  i just plain prefer being home surrounded by my stuff and plenty to do.

2.  i have a VERY hard time sleeping there.  it smells different than home, and the air is super dry because of the woodstove, and the bed in the guest bedroom is super super super hard.  this time we thought we'd solve at least one issue by bringing the aerobed we bought a few months back when sam was coming to stay at our house for a week.  saturday night we both tossed and turned.  sunday night more tossing more turning.  last night we finally figured out that for some reason we were sleeping on the wrong sides of each other, and switched, and slept MUCH better.  i felt like such a tard for not figuring it out before then.

3.  my skin breaks out EVERY time we visit.  i don't know if it's the air or the water or my travel stress that does it - but here i am - we've been home for five hours and i've got three major zits in production.  my jerk face.

so while i feel that my entry is full of complainy bologna - it's mild compared to all the venting i'd like to do.

we have two other Christmases coming up that i'm looking forward to.  a celebration with chuck & hannah & the lovely miss p.  and then a week after that we're headed up to maine to visit my family up there.  even though i hate (abhor) the drive (i'm a whiny brat), i'm always much more relaxed up there than in CT.

tomorrow: i'm looking forward to making my list.  and going to the grocery store.  that's the extent of the planning so far.

i'm sleepy.  one last episode of west wing on dvd and then i'm going to bed in MY bed.

happy holidays.

Friday, December 22, 2006

so here's the thing...

today is friday.  and i'm very excited because i've quit my job and today is my last day.  but it doesn't quite feel real yet because even if i hadn't quit my job next week our office is closed and i wouldn't be here.  so i think the anticipation i'm really feeling right now is about equal to the anticipation of a week's vacation.  i think the REAL exciting part will come on the morning of January 2 when my hubster has to come to work but i can stay home.  can it possibly be true??

i hope it's as wonderful as i think it will be. 

tonight we're going to celebrate.  i'm not sure how exactly.  the only firm plans are that chuck & hannah & miss p are coming to OUR house, and there will be alcohol involved.  and i hope to vacuum before they arrive.  :)
remember when Nemo wakes up his dad "FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!"

i'm like that today except its "LAST DAY OF WORK LAST DAY OF WORK!"

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

so i went to Target yesterday.  it was crazy crazy busy.  lines so long.  and the cashier lady was SOOOOOOO slow.

the purchase i'm most excited about?  i bought two pairs of scissors.  because in my house it's very hard to find a pair of scissors that can cut anything.  and i had to tell my husband..."these scissors are for normal cutting things.  like paper.  and string.  they are not for cutting wires and metal."  and i felt like my mom.  as a kid i never understood why my mom had special scissors and those were scissors we should NOT touch.

now i'm very excited for my new scissors.  that will be (hopefully) where i put them when i'm looking for them.

Friday, December 15, 2006

business days: 5 days, 1 hour, 24 minutes

regular days: 7 days, 1 hour, 24 minutes

dressy days: 4 days, 1 hour, 24 minutes

Thursday, December 14, 2006

but who's counting...

business days: 6 days, 1 hour, 50 minutes...

regular days: 8 days, 1 hour 50 minutes...

dressy up days (fridays are casual): 4 days, 1 hour 50 minutes...

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

a new regular feature...

notice to the right --> --> -->

a new feature called "looking forward..." where i plan to keep track of all the things i'm looking forward to after i escape from this nasty cubicle.

Monday, December 11, 2006

big doings...

so here's the news.

last thursday, at 8:50 a.m., i presented my two weeks' notice to my two bosses.

with full support of my hubby, and the knowledge that i am not happy here, my last day is dec. 22.

i don't have another job lined up, but i do know that when i start to look (really actively after christmas) it will be for a part-time job.  i hope to use the extra hours to pursue something more creative.  i've always had the dream & desire to spend more time knitting/spinning/dying/designing - and now i'll have the time.

it doesn't really feel real yet.  i'm not going to start packing stuff up and taking it home until next week.  but i catch myself daydreaming about a clean house, about time to exercise without having to drop something else i want to do, about not dreading the waking up every day.

i'm a little nervous.  i'm sure it will feel a bit scary to not have as much cashflow as we used to - but i'm feeling, also, proud of myself for not settling and being willing to follow a dream for a little while.

this must be a life lesson, right?

Monday, December 4, 2006


once in a while i remember that music is powerful.

i purchased Sufjan Stevens 'Songs for Christmas' this morning through iTunes. i'd been wanting to get it - but waited - until i felt like it was christmas-time. this morning, with the snow, i "clicked here to buy."

i started listening this morning around 8:30 - and every time i had to get up from my desk i made sure to pause it, because i didn't want to miss any of it.

most holiday albums exceed at being just okay. some holiday albums are less irritating than others. they aren't so much about the sappy, but more about the season and actually appreciating it. some albums are merely meant for reminiscing. some albums, if i close my eyes, make me feel like i'm at home - or just where i need to be at that moment.

this holiday album has succeeded in all ways. it's not irritating - it's not like any other christmas album i've ever heard. it's excellent in its simplicity and sacred with its focus. if i close my eyes i'm suddenly in maine next to the woodstove - and the intense warming is real. thank you, sufjan, for being an artist uninterested in the top 40 or the mall. the lack of santa baby and two front teeth are noticeable and appreciated.

i loved the entire album. but just now, when i got to the second to the last track, after pressing pause & play all day long, i found my favorite. 'holy, holy, holy' sung for me and my soul - brought tears to my eyes. it's not very often that a song, or anything for that matter, helps me to remember who i am at my very core and what is important to me.

this album has already become a permanent part of my collection.



it's snowing! let the playing of the christmas music commence!